mood: bored music: "When I Come Around" Greenday

Got board duing the hurricane so i felt like taking quizes just for the hell of it..

You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit with your friends and value everyone freidnship you have. You're a real people person and everyone loves how friendly you are. You're good with encouraging people but usually don't like to be the center of attention. You are a social butterfly and probably are in several circles of friends but it's just because you're well liked and you make people comfortable. You're both fun and wise but you are very realistic about life

mood: flirty music: "Hate Every Beautiful Day" Sugarcult

So...haven't written in this for forever. On one hand a lot has happened and on the other not a lot. I so never used to be THIS much of a flirt. like omg....almost feel bad about it cause i lead guys on all the time. yea... Dunno what else to say about that. So i love my life a lot more then i did like last thursday or so. Yea...grrness...Oh i figured out that shawn didnt hate me but still...i dunno...i dont like him like i used to. He's just a friend...  :P Rps all the way though. :D I'm so bad :) I swear...anywayz....well i'm out....picture day sux...and....umm...sniff white out  :P  Love ya all now and forever.

mood: blank music: "Crying" Sugarcult

My favorite quote: "It hurts when the person you wish loved you wont even look you in the eyes"

Haven't updated in a while. Just been doing this and that and a whole lotta nothing. Friday was fun as hell though :D Jess...Britt you know what I'm talkin about ;) hehe fire + stuffed bear = lots of stupid ass fun! Deff. can't wait till next Friday if we can get together. Umm Sunday youth was great too. Without him there its just so much better :D Although I do miss seeing him. I just hate when someone brings him up *cough brittany cough* Anyway...I'm just living my pathetic life and having fun every now and then. Jessalin we need to go like guy hunting or something because our school sux. Like seriously....maybe ill go get hit by a bus, seems to be an easy solution to everything....anyway...I'm out. Not much to say right now. Love ya all lots...bye.

mood: crushed music: "Anthem of Our Dying Day" Story of the Year

So ya I have no idea who actually reads this journal anymore. If you do...fun fun. Gotta love my life huh? :P eh...I write it for more me then anything....

So the past 3 days I have been hanging with Julie. It's been fun :P I saw AVP with her, karina, ryan, and tugs. It was coo. Then hung out at jordans. We watched one of the alien movies. Like #3 I think...whatever. I ended up basicly laying on tugs the whole movie. lol. It was.....interesting. Then today Julie had a "ddr party". Ha, didnt end up that way. We played it for like 10 min then just hung out and played a few fighting games on the ps2. It was fun.

I left yearly, around 4:30 and got ready for Bullet Field's gig. It was boring and then the first band started to play. They were pretty dang good :D The lead singing was cute. The screamer was really...well weird. Oh well. Then Bullet Field came on. Wow are they amazingly good! Afterwards I'm sitting on the couch and this hott guy comes and site in the chair kinda next to me. He was like 'hey' and all that and I'm like 'so what band are you here for?' He was like 'oh I'm in the next band' So ya...it was wicked. I was proud of myself because I actually talked to him and wasnt nervous....So proud of myself :D After then everything kinda went down hill. I missed the next band because I was outside with britt because she found out that Shawn had quit the band. So she was shitty all night and needed someone there so I stayed with her. That was pretty shitty that it just had to happen that night....oh well...

Before when Bullet Field played their first song I wanted to cry because I was so messed up with my feelings about him. I dunno....I was so pissed off and sad and i dunno...just all mixed into one. I wanted to cry so much.... He hasn't even talked to me since like 3 weeks ago. I swear he wont even look at me either. It hurts when the person you wish would at least be your friend wont even look at you....

mood: energetic music: nothing...

I'm at Jessalin's right now. We just saw the movie 'Little Black Book'. It was pretty good. Jess is cooking dinner right now. Ya I got out of helping...so sweet. :P It's cause I cant cook...oh well...So yay, Jordan is comming back this weekend :D I so happy. I didnt get to talk to him for a cupple days and it seemed like forever. hum...what else to talk about... OH!

This Saturday...August 21st... Come to OZone CD's for a kick ass concert!!! It's my friends band playing (Bullet Field) and 3 other local bands. Trust me they are amazingly good. Like drop your jaw good. It's at 7pm to...well i dunno... it's $6....say that your there for Bullet Field...PLEAZ COME!! you wont regret it! btw its rock....and again...they are amazingly good and I'm not just saying that. Plus some of the guys are really hott!! haha always a plus. :D But ya...COME!!!! YOU WILL LOVE IT!!!! Tell all your friends cause it's gonna be awesome. And remember... BULLET FIELD!!!

So ya....anyway....Thats where I'll be this Saturday. It was suppose to be Friday but the hurricane created a small problem. but ya...anyway...well I'm out...love ya all lots now and forever! <3

mood: content music: "Hello Again" Lostprophets

Haha so this like rox my sox man. I totally have power after the hurrican. Although no one else seems to. Ha I laugh at you all that lots power. :) Ya thats right.... *points and laughs* Dude I totally saw the fuckin transformers blow up. All the pretty colors in the sky. It rocked majorly. Kinda sucked for the ppl that lost power cause of it but it still kicked ass in the sky. So I'm wide awake and I can't talk to anyone. Bites majorly but I have AC so I'm happy :) Damn...my tree in my front yard like a huge ass branch fell down and its in front of my door. You have to like hack your way to my door. Sux but I dont have to clean it up cause I think my mom is callin professionals. :P I can't be trusted with a saw :) So I was at my aunts like the whole night till 12. It was fun. I'm so freakin sick though. I thought I was going to throw up. Thank God I didn't. Grrr someone needs to come online....Oh well....I should just go to sleep. Well I need sleep all even though I'm not tired. Love ya all lots now and forever. <3

mood: bouncy music: "Make a Move" Lostprophets

From about 6pm Friday to about 7 pm Saturday was like the best 25 hours of my LIFE! So much fun and laughing packed into such a short time. So it first starts as Jessalin, Brittany, and I went to youth. The ppl were cool and the church was just a awesome/fun church. Omgosh these girls were handing out these braclets out that had a perfume smell to them so they smell good...but you can SO freakin get high off that shit! It was great! Us three were just sitting in church sniffing the damn braclet. lol. It made my eyes turn red and it was so funny. We were going crazy after the youth. It lasted to about 10 and we stayed till 11. So in that hour we had to spend we: bought lots of food which we later ate, Jessalin was laughing so hard that she had to spit out her drink (which was gross so me and Britt started laughing even harder) , I spit on Jesus (wow...really dont ask about that one, it was total accedent, I didnt know I could spit that far..lol), my eyes turned red from the braclet, laughed a shit load about stupid crap, heard Jessalin snort (which was absolutly great), and played kick the flatt ass can (lol...Jessalin crushed my Dr. Peper can so we started kicking it around). So it was crazy shit. So then we take Jessalin home and I went back to Britt's house and spent the night. We talked about boys a lot (of course) and just kinda hung out. We had these damn ballons like clowns had and we made like dogs and swords and I made a hott ass star, lol. We ended up going to bed at 4am or so. Throughout the night Brittany kicked me like 3 times, lol. We woke up around 10:40am or so. Then she called Dale and got the check so we ended up going over to Dale's house and heard them play. Omg times 30! They were SO unbelivably good!! They just added 2 new players though and Britt said they dont sound as good as before but they were still awesome beyond beleife. I had never heard Shawn play guitar (which he was amazing at) and Dale sing (which he was also amazing at singing/screaming). Wow...it was great. I didn't talk to Shawn at all though. Ha..ya..thats right brittany....I won the bet! lol. Then we went to church for a church band practice and so we had dale and dale's mom in the front, then in the back very squshed was me, brittany, the check, and shawn. It was so funny though....omg....lol. Lets just say that car ride was amazingly weird and funny. Then we were at church till like 9pm and about 7pm Glenn shows up. I don't know why but it made me completly depressed. I just thought about his mom and all the fuckin BS that split us up as friends.....I was just pissed off after that. So thats why I had only an amazingly good 25 hours from 6pm to 7pm the next day.....Wow I won't ever forget thoes hours....best 25 hours in a long ass time....I needed that. Anyway....lots of love to everyone....<3

mood: confused music: "Hands Down" Dashboard Confessional

It's 11:30 on a school night but oh well. I just wanted to write in this real quick. Ha...umm if you know what happened sunday like I really thought about it and just like....I dunno....he was just messin with me....I didn't think he would do that to me, but hes a guy...go figure. I dunno....its just so weird, our relationship that is. It's kinda fucked up more then anything. ya, I dunno. I think he was just messin and just wanted to make out and nothing to do with me. kwim? I just kinda thought about that and I honestly think thats how it is. I really dont know but oh well...maybe if you have some insite and think what's really happening, tell me. I'm confused as hell. I almost feel used yet I dont think I really care...slutty? oops...probably...oh well *bites lip and looks all around room as if didn't know what i just said* anyway....

School was cool. I saw lots of ppl I hadn't seen in a while. ha...kinda weird but I liked seen david again, lol. He is just so much fun to flirt with! haha...wow I am a slut....i mean...what? lol anyway...so ya...It should be cool this year. I like my classes for the most part. Dont have lunch with all that many friends but at least I have Jessalin :D (love ya jess!!) and question to you....do you just despise being called Jess? I have never really asked you, or I did at one time and forgot. anyway....reply if you know wtf is going on cause i dunno....Love ya all lots now and forev! <3

mood: bored music: "Memory" Sugarcult

So I am like so freakin bored right now. I spent the night at Emily's house last night and we left a shit load of retarded messages on Julie's cell phone. The were funny as freakin hell! lol. so retarded though, lol. We left about 19 messages :D I told her to save them so I can hear them so ya... :P Thats how bored we were. Then tonight I went to the mall with Emily. It was cool. I got a few shirts and some earings. Ya, the really sad part was that I could have been at the warped tour tonight but I ended up not being able to go :'-( *goes in corner and cries* oh well....

Anyway so tomorrow night I'm going with brittany to her youth and supposedly shawn will be there :P Dunno if he will but whatever....*still dreams of being at warped tour*....

So bored...so bored...dont know what to do...was gonna ask a friend to come over but NO....she's with her bf and god knows she wouldnt come over now....whatever....so I looked really hott last night....wore my new skirt thats hott as hell....wore a tight shirt and looked hott as hell....ya....I'm fuckin bored so I'm going to go...love ya alls lots now and forever <3

mood: bouncy music: "Hands Down" Dashboard Confessional

Hey ya all. It's 2 in the morning. Go figure.....YAAAY!! lol dont ask. :P Haha wow....some guy just IMed me and was like...'im horny, wanna satisfy that for me?' I was like 'not especially' lol. sry...i found it funny. Yay 2 more days till Sunday...well actually 1 and a lot of hours but thats becides the point....anyway....I can't wait to see everybody :) Mabye I can find some more reasons to go to hell ;) ....I mean....what? lol...dont ask if you don't get. lol. I'm just fuckin blabin at this point. yaaaay!....anyway....

So I went Midnight bowling with K and J, Ryan and some other chick. It was lots of fun. Haha I probably flirted with ryan like no other but Julie said I didn't piss her off so its all good. :D Ryan's pretty cool. Him and Julie are like purfect for each other, lol. So cute. :D ha, why can't I find someone like that?....i mean...thats being selfish....ya.... Oh anyway...so at the bowling ally they were having prizes if your ticket they gave you was called and Karina's was called but it was on the table so I took it. And then she wanted it so while we were walkin up to the counter we were like fighting over a damn ticket. When we got to the person he asked us pretty seriously. He goes....'are you guys drunk?' lmao. It was so freakin funny! He totally thought we were wasted. lol. I could see why though. We were like walkin all over the place and actin stupid. haha yaaaay! :D lol...i dunno. Oh and also Julie and I were being stupid and we wore really baggy pants and boxers under them and like pulled our pants down so you could see our boxers, ha we looked weird. Some guy gave me a weird look, it was funny as hell. :D Anyway...I'm gonna stop freakin typing cause I need some damn sleep. Although i probably wont sleep till like 4 or so...go figure. Anyway..love ya all lots now and forever. *muah*

mood: blank music: "Everytime" Britney Spears

So I'm back in Florida. My computer was broken till today. I didnt realize how much i turely LOVE my computer till I didn't have it. Whatever...at least I have it now. :P Well nothing has gotten better about my Iowa decision. Still have no idea what to do. I should probably talk to my brother about it. I should probably talk to my bro about it but whatever. He called on a lunch break and hes like...is everything ok? and I lied and said yes. Oh well. I'm not good at talking on the phone. whatever....

Anyway...Julie, Karina, and I walked to Winn Dixie 2 days in a row. Between the 2 we got 6 honks, 2 whisles, and like 3 woohoos. lol. It was so funny.

Well anyway I dont feel like writing anymore. tty all later...bye bye.

mood: depressed music: Humming of the computer

Haven't said anything recently really in this Lj. Actually been busy. A lot of things have happened. I drove for about an hour or so 2 different times. It was coo. Got kinda used to driving. It was out in the country though so I only saw about 3 cars each time. Umm I went to Mt. Plesent (a town in Iowa) for my Great Grandma's funeral. I got to see lots of family so that was kinda nice. Plus I was in the car with both my bros for 3 hours there and from the town. Although I did sleep for most of the trip so whatever. I wish I would have talked to them more but oh well.

Damn...I dont know what to do anymore. While I was driving my dad talked to me about moving back again. He is being so serious about it. I just dont know what to think really. I'm so fuckin confused! Everything he said made since. I would get a better education if I came back. I dont give a shit about school when I'm down there. I'm just breazing through. It's not only that but a lot of things. Its just I dont know. When Erik my bro asked me if I wanted to stay an extra week maybe since I had seen mom a lot during the 5 weeks I just started crying because all I could think of was seeing my friends. God damn, I love all my friends a lot but I dont know....Thats the only reason I live in Fl. Honest to god. I also like my youth but thats about it. I hate Fl becides thoes to things. I just dont know what to think. Should I move back? Should I stay? I dont know....I think about it constently. Gosh...I was talking to my aunt one time and the only advice she gave me was think life changing actions very carefully. Ya, im trying... I think about living in iowa and I miss my friends. Thats it. Thats all I fuckin miss. I just fucking dont know! I know I'd make new friends but still...I really dont know. Erik asked me what I wanted and I was just silent. I then said...'I dont know' He asked me how I didnt know and i just dont. Damn I know I have said that a lot but its the damn truth. I dont mean to sound like my friends arnt important because they are but still....I know my friends want me to stay but still....God pleaz tell me what to do.

mood: content music: "Breaking the Habbit" Linkin Park

Gosh, havent writen in this lj in forever, or so it seems. 1 week and 1 day till I go home. yay/cry. After the 2nd week or so I was used to not seein everybody and I have been doing something like every day. I don't cry anymore when I go home. I still hate my mom when I return to Fl though. Oh well....FYI to everyone, I might just invite myself to ur house cause I wont wanna stay home. Trust me, I never do. When I was with my bro and mom they were talking about how I dont do that much at my dads and like my bro got really irritated with me I think. He seems to think I'm a difficult child but I only am with my mom when we talk about my dad cause she always says shit about him. It pisses me off so much. She always says how she doesnt like my Grandma how she says shit about my Grandpa but she fuckin does it about my dad so fuck her....honestly. Whatever....I dont ever listen to what she says anyway so whatever...

My step cousin is here. We are havin lots of fun. hehe, first time in a while I have been able to scope out boys with someone, hehe. We are so bad :D Omg today we saw these 2 guys and they both had their shirts off. SO HOTT! We kept lookin at them and they were looking at us....damn one was really built! I was like...*liks lips* hehe. I so bad :P Yesterday we went to the lake. It was pretty sweetass. We went tubing. Damn it was awesome! My cousin fliped off, it was SO funny! hehe I'm so nice :P Damn, today I'm payin for tubing though. My neck and abs and back hurt now. Oh well, it was worth it :D I was so sad when I figured out that the person's house that we went to grand-son who is my age was going to come but he had to do something with his bro. :'-( I heard he was really cute too!!! Not fair :( oh well :P Still had lots of fun.

Well tomorrow I'll be on the road a lot cause we have to take my cousin back home.  kinda sux but oh well. Oh...I saw King Author (sp?) OMG it was REALLY good! The hott chick that is it POTC is in it too. She kiks ass. The guys in it are not like hott but pretty cool. lol all the guys I liked died....go figure :P Damn...it was really good. I advise ppl to see it. Well I should probably go now. Love ya all lots and I'll see ya soon I guess.

mood: amused music: "Only One" Yellowcard

Kinda bored right now. Its late like always but not as late as usual. The past two days I stayed with my oldest bro Erik. It was fun. First we went to his roommate Steph's dad's pool. It was aight. Her bro was there, hes the same age as me. I don't think I said like anything to him though. Oh well. There was some other chick there and whatever. Just didn't talk all that much. Wasn't really in the mood. Steph is the coolest though. I really do dislike being with people I'm not used to. That would be everybody that was there basicly except my bro and mom. I didn't even talk much when I was with them except when it was just my brothers and mom and I. And then later that night when we were playin cards with Thomas (eriks other roommate), his brother Joe (who was really adorible :D), my bro rich, my mom and I. That was GREAT! I had so much fun then :) We played cards for a long time then everybody left at 11pm. I got some really sweet ass hours of old school Super Mario 3 in. lol. When Thomas came home at like 2am he played a little mario too. It was so funny though :D He doesnt play many video games so he was pretty bad, lol. He finally got it so he could beat a level in 2 trys, lol. fyi, thats pretty bad, die once then win...pretty bad, lol. So funny though :D I got him hooked on the game :) But ya, that was lots of fun. I ended up not going to see my Grandpa...THANK YOU GOD!! lol....I really did not want to go. So ya my past 2 days were pretty cool. And then Tues. night I went to see my Aunt that lives in town with Erik and my mom. My aunts bf was there too. He really kreeped me out. *shivers* Hes one of thoes old guys that wink at you every time you make eye contact. Needless to say I acted like I didnt want to be there the whole time and hardly said anything. I was just in a pissy mood and didnt wanna be there. Whatever. I know you have to do shit when you dont want to...umm DUH but still. Sucked majorly. Oh well. I'm still alive...or at least I think so....*ponders* :P anyway. I shouldn't stay up to late....1 at the most, lol. Love you all lots <3

mood: chipper music: "What Happened to Us" by Hoobastank

So I just got done watching 'Secret Window' and Johnny Depp is very fine in this movie...not as good as Pirates but still fine :D Anyway. It was a good movie and I do recommend it to anyone who hasn't seen it. It really isn't that scary. Only in a few parts. Damn...it was kind of like 'Fight Club' and about that good. And you all know how much I like 'Fight Club' :) Omgosh, so in the movie the phone rings a lot. And after the movie stoped the freakin' phone rings. I was like...whoa...ironic and kreepy. So I answer the phone like I always do and it took the person like 5 seconds to answer me so in that time I was like freaked out! I was like wholy shit...who the freak is this?!?! lol it turned out to be Joy's mom. lmao. But damn...it still freaked me out. :D I just had to tell ya all that. :P

While I was going to eat my dad talked to me about comming back to live with him. Although he always does this...this time its eatin away at my mind. I really dont know what to do anymore. I really dont want to loose all my friends but then again thats the only reason I stay in Florida. I don't stay there cause my mom or my cousin or anyone but my friends. I don't care for the school really. It's not awful but not the greatest. Gosh I love all my friends SO MUCH and I really dont want to sound like you arn't important to me because you are! But are friends really the only reason I should stay there? I mean I see how much I miss you just being here for 5 weeks. I don't know how a hole freakin' school year + would be. But I still wonder.......gosh...someone just tell me what to do............

Nothing else really happened today. I had lunch with some of my dad's friends that also knows me. They are pretty coo at least. So I wasn't bored outta my mind. Then we went to some art thing. It was outside with lots of artists. Whatever....I'm not one to really like thoes things. It's aight but I only the the photography anyway so whatever. Anyway well love and miss ya all. <3

mood: energetic music: "Take Me Away" Avril Lavigne

Omgosh...I'm in a great mood! My brother Erik came over last night with a friend Steph and we had a great time :) First he cooked dinner which was pretty good. Then after dinner we looked at his Europe pictures because he just got back from being there for 5 weeks. The pictures were really cool. I have decided that I'm going with a group of friends to Europe. lol. At one point my brother was like "Katie close your eyes" because my brother went into a 'coffee shop'...they sold other things becides coffee....in fact I hightly dobut that that place even had coffee. lol. It was like some smoke place. Very funny. lol He also went with a friend that wore this damn green t-shirt like half the time he was there, lol. After the pictures we played some cards. lol that was good times...good times....Then today I woke up at 7:30 and went to breakfast with my grandpa and dad. That was...well I could lie but it was boring as heck. Oh well. I lived with it. :P...hehe...sugar cubes....Well then later today my other bro Rich came down. He called like 5 min before he got to the house and I was just talkin to him. lol I saw him come down the drive way and everything and we were still talking. :D we are so weird. Then we went to see 'Around the World in 80 Days' It was aight. Pretty funny in some parts...stuipd in others but eh...whatever. So now I'm in a dandy mood :P

So my mom's in town.....thats all I'm gonna say about that. I have to go to see my Grandpa that I swear dis-likes me but then again that whole side of the family has a freakin problem with me....I swear. Oh well. Well I would type more but my mouse is messed up and it was on the X button and I didn't know that so I Xed out this BIG entry that I had ready. So this one is a shortened virsion of it because I just had to write about my day.

Well life is aight right now. I'm just kinda care and worry free at the moment. :) Just feels great to be like that again.

Jessalin I miss you so much! I know I can't say that much anymore but I still wish I could just be there more for you as in like next to you not over the phone or on the net. All I can do is computer hugs, lol. I love you lots! I can't wait till we can just hang for the hell of it again. Thoes day's were the best. I hope everything gets better for you...I really do. Love ya and miss ya all lots. xoxo

mood: blank music: "My December" Linkin Park

Omgosh this is my dad's racoon!! It is SO cute! I'm gonna steal it when I go home so shhh! lol. It is the most adorible animal ever! We take it outside sometimes and I can put it down then back up about 5 feet and it will come prancing after me. It is the most adorible thing ever! :( I'll be so sad when I have to leave her. haha ya...wont miss anything else...just the racoon, lol, jk. Ya....I just totally had to add this tonight. So cute! :D